To find our inner cry, we must identify with our soul, which is ceaselessly crying on our behalf.
When asked, what are the first steps in the spiritual life, Sri Chinmoy replied:
“The spiritual life will give you inner peace, joy and bliss in abundant measure. People cry for name, fame, earthly achievement, success and progress and so many things. They are right in their own way. But you should start crying inwardly from this moment on for joy, peace of mind and the awakening of your inner consciousness.
“We have, all of us, two different types of consciousness: one is finite, which is earthbound; the other is infinite. This infinite Consciousness, this universal Consciousness is within us. So early in the morning, go deep within. Focus your concentration on your heart and try to feel there the existence of a child crying within you. This is your soul. Then consciously try to identify with this inner being, which is absolutely yours. When you are identified with this inner being, you will see the inner being is crying for you, has been crying for you and will cry for you for eternity unless and until you have become inseparably one with the Absolute Truth.
“So, early in the morning for five or ten minutes, please try to go deep within with your conscious mind or with your pure, sincere heart and feel the necessity of the inner life. Once you feel the necessity, your inner being will guide you, mould you and shape you along the path. Finally, you can march and run along the path. If you can go deep within and sow the seed of aspiration with your inner cry, then sooner or later you are bound to get a bumper crop.”
– Sri Chinmoy
We all long for a better life: this longing ultimately leads us to meditation and the spiritual life.
We know however, that a better life means a different life from what we have now, which means we must be prepared to change, both within and without. Without change there can be no progress; without progress there can be no transformation: without transformation there can be no abiding satisfaction in our lives.
Change is the greatest challenge we all face. Always there is something within us which resists change, no matter how eagerly we yearn for it. According to Sri Chinmoy, there is only one agent capable of changing us and transforming our nature:
“Transformation — transformation of nature, transformation of life — is the most difficult subject in the entire world! The most difficult subject in human life is the transformation of our nature, and for that, how many centuries, how many lives we have taken, and how many more we shall have to take!
“We may be sixty, seventy, eighty or even ninety years old, but if we want to see how much we have transformed our nature, sometimes we cannot give ourselves a mark of more than zero. For ninety years we may live on earth, but it may happen that, in terms of transformation, we have made no progress. Again, in the case of some people, right from the beginning, from the dawn of their life, we see that they are making progress, making progress.
“Earthly age is no indication of our transformation. It entirely depends on the inner cry. Only the heart’s inner cry can transform us. Otherwise, year after year we are only adding earthly years to our life; transformation is not taking place. Transformation comes only from the inner cry.”
– Sri Chinmoy
“Our progress-life
Is sumptuously fed
By our inner cries.”
– Sri Chinmoy
Spiritual progress blossoms in the expansion and deepening of our heart, experienced when our mind is silent. To enter into a silent mind is therefore the first objective of any meditation practice or spiritual path.
The mind, however, cannot and will not easily be silenced. Its very nature is to be restless like a monkey, to distract us and thwart our concentration and meditation efforts, to keep our attention focussed on itself. As long as we are absorbed in our mind, we are restrained in the box of our mind’s chatter: we do not change, and cannot progress.
We cannot employ our mind to silence the mind; we cannot think away thoughts. Only the psychic power of our hearts’ inner cries can subdue the mind. Our mind’s bluff and bluster is swept away in the flood of our inner cry’s intensity, disarmed by its purity, charmed by its simplicity, captured by its urgency, silenced in its sincerity.
As our inner cry eclipses our mind, the portals of our heart open and we find ourselves basking in our inner sunshine, flowing and growing into our perfection-potential. Our inner cries not only make our spiritual progress possible, but inevitable; they are the spark plug, fuel, engine and accelerator of our progress-life.
Our inner cry arises from a compelling dissatisfaction with our present consciousness and capacity, a gnawing awareness that we can and must go deeper, grow into and become someone better, brighter, fuller. Our inner cry fulfils its own yearning, piloting our progress-journey from human self into divine being. Sri Chinmoy states this spiritual law in an aphorism of transcendent beauty:
“The rainbow of our inner divinity
Always rises from
Our crying and weeping hearts.”
– Sri Chinmoy
Sri Chinmoy was once asked, if there is a specific way to accelerate the attainment of our God-realisation. His reply encapsulates the entire purpose and function of the inner cry, from the highest point of view:
“Yes, there is a specific way, and it is called conscious aspiration. God must come first. There must be no mother, no father, no sister, no brother — nothing else but God, only God. True, we want to see God in humanity, but first we have to see Him face to face. Most of us cry for money, name, fame, material success and prosperity; but we do not cry even for an iota of inner wisdom. If we cry sincerely, devotedly and soulfully for unconditional oneness with our Inner Pilot, then today’s man of imperfection will be transformed into tomorrow’s God, the perfect Perfection incarnate.
“Aspiration, the inner cry, should come from the physical, the vital, the mind, the heart and the soul. Of course, the soul has been aspiring all the time, but the physical, vital, mental and psychic beings have to become consciously aware of this. When we consciously aspire in all parts of our being, we will be able to accelerate the achievement of liberation.
“How do we aspire? Through proper concentration, proper meditation and proper contemplation. Aspiration covers both meditation and prayer. He who is praying feels he has an inner cry to realise God, and he who is meditating also feels the need of bringing God’s Consciousness right into his being. So both ways are correct.
“Conscious aspiration is the first thing we need. Aspiration is all that we have and all that we are. Then consciously we have to offer our aspiration to the Supreme so that we can become one with Him.”
– Sri Chinmoy
The inner cry is God’s secret mechanism for our illumination and perfection.
All that we seek – peace, light, bliss, satisfaction – is already within us; there for the taking. God could give us all realisation here and now – but then there would be no game, no drama, no mystery, no suspense, no battle to be won. We tend to value something much more if we have worked hard for it, whereas things which just appear in our lap, we may take for granted.
So God devised the inner cry, and planted its seed in the depths of our being. When this seed germinates, we feel the inner cry as coming from within ourselves, arising of our own volition. When we follow our inner cry and attain some degree of peace, light and satisfaction, we are thrilled at our achievement, for we have worked to attain what we aspired for.
Sri Chinmoy writes:
“Meditation needs practice. You have to practise to become spontaneous in your meditation. Why is it that you get hungry one day and the next day you don’t get hungry? If you work hard on the outer plane, then you are bound to become hungry. If, on the physical plane, you run quite a few miles, then you are bound to feel hungry. Similarly, if you work hard on the inner plane, then you will be blessed with receptivity. In the inner plane, if you cry soulfully and devotedly, then you can create receptivity, and inside that receptivity you will feel gratitude. When you feel gratitude, at that time your meditation is bound to be spontaneous. So there are many ways to get hungry. But the ultimate cause of inner hunger, the real source of your inner cry is God and nothing else.”
– Sri Chinmoy
“If you want to develop
A special bond of oneness-delight
With God,
Then use your unused inner cry.”
– Sri Chinmoy
This poem carries such power, promise, allure, beauty, intimacy, urgency, agency and thrill! Who would not want to develop a special bond of oneness-delight with God? Is this not the secret purpose of our every breath and heartbeat? And here, this prize is so close, within our grasp…
That Sri Chinmoy points to our inner cry as the pathway to this goal is no surprise: however, he specifically nominates “your unused inner cry” as the anointed pathfinder for this quest. We do not need anything new: we only need activate something we already have within; realign our priorities, reorient our goals, reorder the cards of our deck.
The same truth is coloured differently in another poem:
“Somewhere God’s Bliss can be seen —
True, but where?
In the home of the seeker’s
inner cry.”
– Sri Chinmoy
The home of our inner cry is our soul, God’s representative within us: trace our inner cry to its source, its home, to find ourselves face to face with our soul, resonant with God’s Bliss. We have only to keep our inner cry always alive, always active: then by feeling it, loving it, treasuring and embracing our inner cry, we return with it to its home, God’s Home in us, our soul.
The highest capability of a human is to live always in our infinite, immortal soul, the soul’s consciousness permeating and reigning redolent in our heart, mind, vital and body.
What is the secret, then, to live always and only in our soul? When asked this question, Sri Chinmoy replied:
“Through the constant, sleepless and breathless inner cries of the heart we can live in the soul only.”
– Sri Chinmoy
“I try, I try,
I always try
To love and please
My inner cry.”
– Sri Chinmoy
This simple, humble aphorism carries the most profound truth and secret of the spiritual life. If we are trying always to love and please our inner cry, then our inner cry is effectively our lord, our obsession, our darling, our primary focus – as it must needs be, for our continuous progress.
Our inner cry is the engine that invokes inspiration, engages our aspiration, activates our hidden capacities and qualities, gives voice to our deepest yearnings, disciplines our vital energies, clarifies and focuses our mind, continually expands our heart, and drives us ever onward to self-discovery and fulfillment.
As the only indispensable necessity in our spiritual life, maintaining, nourishing and intensifying the inner cry itself, becomes our foremost goal, our primary cry. The effort to find, nurture, love and please our inner cry, is like the role of a spark plug in a motor vehicle: first the spark must itself be produced, which in turn ignites the fuel that powers the engine of our progress. Once the engine of our inner cry is engaged, all else that is needed, follows and flows naturally.
When we are focused on loving and pleasing someone, we have no time or inclination to think of ourselves, our own desires. So, when we are only trying to love and please our inner cry, there is no room in our consciousness for petty thoughts and emotions, for doubt, fear, jealousy, insecurity, anger and pride. Every weakness, limitation and problem, with all negativity is swept away by the momentum-torrent of our quest.
First and forever more, let this most precious mantra resound:
“I try, I try,
I always try
To love and please
My inner cry.”
– Sri Chinmoy
There are two aspects of our inner cry: the conscious and the super-conscious. Consciously, we cry to attain specific qualities, or to overcome certain obstacles in our spiritual life. We cry for that which we are aware we are in need of.
Yet behind, within, around and beyond our conscious cry flows the invisible, unfathomable inmost cry. It is not only that this inmost cry, cries for that of which we are unaware: this inmost cry itself lives, breathes, moves and operates in realms to us unknowable and inconceivable.
Our conscious inner cry is our instrument, inspired and directed by our aspiring will. Our super-conscious, inmost cry is the executing voice of the Supreme’s Will, shaping and employing us as God’s instrument in His cosmic Game.
The spiritual quality which most eludes us on earth, and yet calls to us most compellingly, is Delight. Happiness, joy, even bliss we are familiar with, as they come and go with apparent cause and effect: while Delight hovers ever ineffable, subtle, effulgent beyond our grasp.
Sri Chinmoy speaks of Delight as the source and goal of our inmost cry:
“Aspiration takes us immediately into the realm of Delight. From Delight we came into existence, from the transcendental Self. Again, in Delight we grow. Our inner being grows in Delight. The outer being may not be aware of it. The outer being goes through suffering, but the soul, the inner being, grows in Delight. At the end of our journey, we enter into the same perpetual Delight. This was the realisation of the Vedic seers, the seers of the hoary past. And also this is the realisation of all true spiritual Masters. Aspiration is that which offers us Infinity in the form of boundless Peace and boundless Delight.”
– Sri Chinmoy
If our heart is devoid of an inner cry, we cannot pretend we are leading a spiritual life. The inner cry is the beating heart of spirituality: arising from the Infinite and the Eternal, and reaching ever towards the Infinite and the Eternal. The inner cry is at once our most sacred gift from God, our most precious offering to God.
Our inner cry will bring us faster to God than any spiritual book, religious observance, good deed, sacrifice, offering or spiritual discipline.
Sri Chinmoy was unequivocal that the inner cry of aspiration is the single indispensable prerequisite and qualification for the spiritual life:
“If you ask whether there is anything that is most important in our spiritual life, then I wish to say, ‘Yes, there is, and that is aspiration.’ Today’s aspiration is bound to bring down God tomorrow or in the near future. It is in aspiration that God manifests Himself through us. The human aspiration and the divine Compassion go together. Divine Compassion is the flame of human aspiration. There is no end to our aspiration. There is no end to our realisation, no end. The goal is ever transcending its own limits. Today’s goal will be tomorrow’s starting point. There is no end to our goal; therefore there is no end to our ultimate realisation. There is no end to our aspiration. We aspire for the Highest, for the Infinite, for the Eternal. The Infinite cannot be measured. As we enter into Infinity, the finite and the Infinite become inseparably one. Our Vedic seers voiced forth:
‘Infinity is that. Infinity is this.
From Infinity, Infinity has come into existence.
From Infinity, when Infinity is taken away,
Infinity remains the same.’
That is the message we can get from our aspiration.”
– Sri Chinmoy
Essential in our inner cry are sincerity, purity and intensity. A half-hearted inner cry is a slap with a feather. Our cry must needs be wholehearted and resolute – at once helpless yet determined, piteous yet adamant, imploring yet commanding.
We cannot know how good a mango tastes by hearing others’ descriptions of it, no matter how vivid and evocative their words: we have to take the mango and eat it for ourselves. So, we cannot know or experience the inner cry by reading or theorising about it. The inner cry has to be invoked, lived, breathed, felt and suffered in every cell and sinew of our being. Our inner cry works only when we give ourselves utterly to it, allowing our aspiration-flame to subsume us, when we grow and flow into, merge with, surrender and become our inner cry.
Sri Chinmoy minces no words in his assessment of the role of aspiration, the inner cry, in our spiritual journey to God:
“Aspiration is the mounting flame within us. If there is no aspiration, then one can never, never realise God. Aspiration has the key to unlock the door of God. Aspiration in concentration, meditation and contemplation is of paramount importance. No aspiration, no realisation. Now this aspiration has to come from the inmost recesses of our hearts. Very often we have mental curiosity and we take it for aspiration. This is absolutely wrong. Aspiration is a burning cry within us. A child is crying for milk. No matter where he is, the mother comes running because the child is crying for milk or something else. The mother comes and feeds the child. In the spiritual life also, when an individual seeker cries ardently, soulfully and devotedly, God comes and stands in front of him.”
– Sri Chinmoy
“It is the inner cry that can and will solve all our problems. Like a runner – a runner has to run the fastest; if he wants to run the fastest, then he will not wear Winter boots or a heavy coat. So, here also, if one is a sincere seeker, he will not be loaded with thoughts and ideas, worries, anxieties.”
– Sri Chinmoy
How does the inner cry solve all our problems?
Problems are inextricably linked with our thought process; our thinking mind is a problem factory. Problems arise from, are nourished and perpetuated by thoughts. When we are successful in clearing our mind of thoughts, so-called problems magically evaporate.
We know that to clear our mind of thoughts, worries and distractions requires an intense effort of will, summoned by a sincere inner cry. One notion of how prayer works, is that our problems are solved on our behalf by God or a higher power responding to our prayer. Our inner cry is seen as an advocate or agent, acting on our behalf.
Yet in a real sense, the inner cry itself obliterates our problems by eclipsing our thought process.
We cannot look in two opposing directions at once; thinking and the inner cry are incompatible. To summon and engage our inner cry, demands our full attention and immersion. An active inner cry subsumes our conscious awareness, sealing our mind’s doors from within and blocking all other claims on our attention. The thoughts and distractions flocking at our mind’s door, find no admittance. With nowhere to settle, thoughts, worries and their extended family of problems, are forced to turn away.
The inner cry not only solves all existing problems: as long as our inner cry stays fresh, it will protect us from future problems as well.
The inner cry cannot be seen, touched, measured or analysed. Therefore, it is very difficult for our mind to grasp or acknowledge. The inner cry can only be felt, treasured and nurtured in our hearts.
In a scientific and economic world of facts, figures and statistics, there is no place or role for the inner cry, for there is no instrument to measure or quantify it. The inner cry flies under the radar of the desire-bound material consciousness, directly into the core of truth.
The inner cry is an alarm siren from the spiritual realm signifying its neglect, demanding our attention and action. It is the announcement and growing claim of our heart, a piercing ray intruding into our thought-clouded mental consciousness to summon forth our blazing higher self.
The inner cry is the source of all human longing for higher meaning and purpose; the source of all philosophy and theology; the source of self-transcendence. Beyond the divisions of the mental realm, which have plagued every man-made religion – words, thoughts, concepts, dogma, ideals and ideology – the inner cry is one in the depths of every human heart. It is the inner cry which alone holds the hope and promise of a universal religion, as Sri Chinmoy writes:
“The world will have one religion, but that religion is not a religion we can talk about. We cannot say that Christianity will be the only religion, or Hinduism, or Buddhism, or Judaism. We cannot say that one religion far surpasses another religion and that this particular religion has to be the only religion. No! There can be one religion provided that this religion is nothing short of inner cry, the inner cry to realise the Truth. One religion means one inner cry in all human hearts.”
– Sri Chinmoy
“You can discover your divine qualities by digging deep within. As a miner digs and gets something, you also can dig. Digging here means your inner cry. When you cry, you dive deep within. And you can develop your divine qualities by constantly crying. In order to discover your divine qualities, you have to cry constantly. And then, when you have a constant inner cry, automatically you will develop all your divine inner qualities. Each time you cry you dig deep within; and when you dig deep within you develop your qualities. So, at every moment, please think of the instrument that digs inside you. It is your aspiration. Just as a miner uses an implement to dig in the ground, you also need a constant inner cry to dig in your heart.”
– Sri Chinmoy
Our inner cry instigates all the work of our spiritual growth and transformation: first, by unearthing our divine qualities – which are the tools and agents of our spiritual discovery and progress – and then, by nurturing, encouraging and developing these qualities within us.
To accomplish this work, our inner cry must overcome the greatest obstacle in our journey – our mind; while simultaneously awakening and empowering our greatest ally, our spiritual heart.
Our inner cry does not so much calm our mind, as overwhelm it, flooding extraneous thoughts, distractions, mental and emotional flotsam and jetsam in its sheer imperative urgency. Whatever card the mind plays to hold us captive – its brilliant ideas, its doubts and fears – the compelling authenticity and urgency of the inner cry trumps it every time.
Simultaneously, our inner cry calls forth and mobilises the most potent force of our being, our soul, to inundate us with its infinite love, light, power and delight to accomplish all that is needed.
